Tuesday, December 23, 2008

bored...

juz back from dance...

my future class is at ultimax...

70 per month....><

aiyoo....

Thursday, November 20, 2008

my 2nd time to MOIS

xp
this is the second time im goin to MOIS...
it is because my friend are having birthday party at MOis..
he invited all of his friends, his friend's friends....
that time we arrive early and half of my classmate also going to MOIS..
so i have to join the sexy dance competiton...
that time i was so nervous...
it wan my first time....
before i join the dance...i have drink a bottle of beer..
and a glass of thick whisky...
OMGG....
it felts so... yikess...
so i felt bit dizzy and lucky im not drunk...
before the competiton.. we have alreade dance and dance...s
ome of them also drunked and cant even woke up...(haha)
so they cant see my dance...T.T
im so happy that all my friend have gone there to support me...
even my last time house mate and TAR studrnt support me...
before that...
we dance at the dance floor with many dance...
shuffle-wei li(birthday boy)
breakdance- doraemon
sexy dance- me n my friends...xp
we totally crazy and some even dance with strangers..
a stranger also dances with me....
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during the dance..
whoaaa...
they were really good than i thought...
very very sexy dance....
haha...
altough i didnt get...
but i really happy people do cheer for me...
i get a bottle of champaign and i gv it to them to enjoy...
after that i sit the whole nite because im exhausted..
haha....
after thet we took some pictures.....


NICK AND ME


haha..jiun wei n doraemon

haha...u c tthey drunk.....
after that we went home..
hong xue vomit the whole place...==
hehe....

My first experince to Clubbin.

its was my 2nd week i gt my car and i have said 2 my slef long time ago...
tat is...
i will go and experience clubbing when i got my own car...
and im very eager to go to Clubbin...
so the 1st time i went with my cousin and a boy..
my fren ask me to join the sexy dance competition.
but i arrive late that why i didnt join...
we arrive at MOIS at 11.30 at we went in...
whaoo...it is full of people...so crowded....so smoky...and noisy...
we went in and we didnt drink any beer coz we arrive late n we dun bring much money...
first time..my freinds brought me to the dance floor and we started to dance...
wow....that feeling is very fun..
i actually forgot all my problem and all i wanna do is dance....
dance dance dance all noght long....
i felt so free that i wish its like that for that moment...
after a few hours we went out coz they say have check..
my friend are under 18 so we come out early...
after awhile we went home...
whaoo..i felt so dizzy after came out from the club...
so dizzy...
the next day i felt really headache that i coulnt listen to waht teacher tought....


this is the 1st time me n my cousin went to MOis...

we really have fun that time,...

but that time i have 2 go back early because my mum are finding me...

and i reach home at 3am...

that time my body are all the smell of the smoke...............

Friday, November 14, 2008

New Life for me...

what past have past..
what have gone have gone...
as they said in chinese,
the old one didnt go, the new one will not come...
so i have decided to give up d old one...
i have suffer alot for him..
i cant take it anymore...

but its all changed..
i have a new life...
i will appreciate it....
i have change my love...
i will forget my passsss............

I love my life now....
i love him....
i love hiM......

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Its been a hard day...

Its been a hard day.. but i've actually have live through it...
i have live single for few monts..
all my friends dont believe im single now but i am..



i am hoping for new hope...
i think its getting closer to me.....
xp

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

too much.....of what?

it seem that im have too much of thinking...
its all the negative side...
why it should be like this?
and if its like this...
i have to accept...
but i just cant let it gone just like that....
im very hurt....i just cant accept the truth..
i keep telling myself that its nothing to be sad of...
because it is not worth for me to be sad...
i can find a new one...in just a short while...
but i just cant let go of hiM.....
i just wish that i could see him and just stick with him...
but i thinks its impossible now...
we have less contact now and i think i have saw him taking his partner out..
i dont know whether its him or not but i just dont want to think about it...
i keep telling myself i've saw the wrong people...

we use to hang out together...
sms throughout the day...
joking around...
but now...
he is gone far away from me....
i just cant imagine what i will feel if i saw him with his partner....
maybe.......

my friends all advise me to forget about him...
but i cry when i think of him before i went to sleep...
im so stupid...
i should not like him at the first place...
why...why it must be him...

now i have nobody....
im alone....
i wish that somebody will help me forget about hIm...
because i know that we are impossible...
impossible to be together....
although i know he still likes me...
but he still choose his partner....

Saturday, October 4, 2008

T.T

he have girlfriend already...

i should be happy shouldnt i??
bt y after i heard it...
i felt so sad....
and i refresh all my memory with him...

who i love??
who i love actually??
oh goD.....
im goin 2 be mad...

i've gone crazy...
i shouldnt be so flower hearted...
i cant be toghther with the person i love....
2 also cant.,....
y??
y??
y cant.....
i want love...
i need someboDy....

T.T

Friday, October 3, 2008

my hair dyed.....xp

my hair dyed...



at 1st i was so scared

i'll lost my black hair...

i think over and over again...

whether wan 2 dye or nt...


i kept asking my friends..

some asked me to dye...

some ask me to maintain my black hair...

i wan co confuse...

so i took a long timee to think whether do dye or not to dye....


bt when i walk in th barber shop...

i feel like its worth tryiinG...

so i tried.....

copper blonde.....

nice colour.....



hehe....

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

we still frenz..

we still frenz..
now i can accept that...
bt..
evrytime i saw him..
i will fall deeper n deeper to him..
everytime n everytime..
i cant control..
i'm suffering...
what should i do?
i cant keep in my heart that long...

although like that...
i have 2 keep things natural..
i dunw an to spoil our friendshiP...

friendshiP is importANt too..
i cant lose hiM..
T.T

Monday, September 15, 2008

when i grow up....my dreams....

now i've got a confession...
when i was young i wanna attention..
and i promise myself i'll do anything...
anything at all for them to notice me...
but i aint complaining..
we all wanna be famous..
so go ahead and say what you wanna say...
you dont know what the feel being nameless...
you want everybody to know what your name is...
coz see when i was younger i will say...

**
when i grow up ...
i wanna be famous...
i wanna be a star ...
i wanna be in movie..

when i grow up..
i wanna see the world...
drive nice cars..
i wanna have groupies...

when i grow up...
be on tv...
people know me...
be on magazine...

when i grow up..
fresh and clean..
number 1 click when i step out on the scene...

becareful what you wish because you just might get it..
just might get it...

They use to tell me i was silly..
until i popped on the tv..
i always wanted to be a superstar..
and knew singing song would get me this far...

i see they staring on me...
oh im a trensetter..
yes this is true coz i can do ...
and no one could do it better...
you can talk about me...
coz im a hot topic...
i see you watching me watching me...
and i know u want it.....

=-=....

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this song too describe my dreams....
when i grow up...
i wanna be famous...
i will try my best.....
im now catching my dreams...
and not to let them gt awayyy....
by seeing this lyrics...
i knew i could....
i couldd....
win the people who always look down on me....
look down on me for no reason...
win those people who always criticise me...
win those people who think im a loser....
.......
WHEN I GROW UP.......................
its almoz near....

to all my beloved friends..

remember the 1st time we meet?
remember the 1st time we talk?
remember the 1st time we introduce ourselves?
remember the 1st time we hang out together??
remember the 1st time we took our meals togehther?
all of this...
do you all still remember??
i bet a part of it you will still remember...but just only afew.....

try to have a flash back memory and remember all...

what we like the 1st time......
is it same like now??
are the situation are happy?
sad?
or ??

we use to hang out after we known each other well...
gone out at night...
hang around...
play around...
fool around...
rock Around...
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ooowhhh....
how i miss that time....
we are so close that time....

but soon..
"BOOM!!''
all those nice memory is gone....
gone by the wind....
gone by the sea....
gone gone gone.......
all gone....
why??
why it has to be like that??
and its because of A THINGS...(Well,mayb its consider a feeling)
and all will know....
that it kills...
it destroy....
it damage all friendshiP....
LOVE..........

once this feelings come...
some will say its a good thing...
but no for some people....
to those who are experience....
known the meaning of it...
but to those who just started...
beware....
the power of love is strong..
stronger than you could imagine....
(sounds bit over)

friends....
plzzz...
do not because of love...
break out the tie of a friendshIp
a person can live without loVe....
but a person CANT live without a love of a FRIENDSHIP...

Saturday, September 13, 2008

im so free.....

aFter the accident i felt so free..
at home..
so bored....
oh no....
after eat i online...
after online felt sleepy then go sleep...
after sleep wake up already the next morning...
i cant even do sports...
im goin mad...
oh no...


before the accident i will practise my dance at least EVERYDAY..
or else i felt that im not sweaty enough...
but now...i cant even walk properly..
my waist are injured...
my hand...
all bruises...
I CANT DANCEE.....T.T...


so as i say...
i online...
i've done this to fill my free time....



i've sent it to them....

im so free...

yishhh...

this life make me feel so sux...if i continue this life,,,

i'll become obese....

i cant take it anymore..

sitin at home doin ntg...

this isnt my life....

Friday, September 12, 2008

my wish are granted..

my wish are granted...
so...
should i feel happy??

wan 2 know what wish for??
xp..
u will gt shocked...

i wish to experienced an accident...
and now...
huala.....
i have gt it 2day....

its painful than i tot...
n im lucky my face is not dstroy...
i protected my face with my hands and injured my hands....

so...
im happy now...
and im also suffering from the pain....

my frenz mayb will say i have learned my lesson...
and i should have experienced it...
bcoz im a dangerous driver...
now..
i didnt know i will continue drive or stop....























so....
yeah me.....

Saturday, September 6, 2008

i will always loVE you....

if i.....
shoulnt stay....
i will only be you way....
so i'll go....
but i know...
i'll think of you every steps of...
the way...

and I....
will always lovE YOU....
will always..lovE YOU...
YOUU...
my darling you...you...

bitter sweet..memory...
thats is all..
im taking with me..
so goodbye..pls dont cry...
we both know im not what you..you need...

anD i...will always love you...
will always lovE you...

i hOpe life treats you kind..
and i hope you hot what you dream of..
and i wish you joy and happiness..
but above all this i wish you LOVE...

And i will always lovE YOU...
i will always love youuu.....

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THis is what are my feelings now...
even do i wish that he could know what i think...
but its impossible....
but nevermind...
i wish him from the bottom of my heart...
even though i tell him i didnt love him....
its fake....
i still love you...
from the bottom of my heart..
but we are not meant to be with each other....
so im here wishing u...
have a better life...
than suffering with me....
i will always love you...
as i say....
i'll be here...
if and only you needed me....
but ....
that day wont come....

if and only.....
miracle comes.....
and find me....
and cure my heart...

i wont be sticking with you that often anymore...
u loVEd her...
u should be with her...
and not me....
i will find my better
life...if could....

or...

its more easier to end it....

its not because of love...
but its my LIFE....

Friday, September 5, 2008

i finally understand...

i finally understand...
tat im the interupter....
y am i so stupid??
i make ppl stress out...
i make ppl hard 2 survive..
bt im there watching him evryday...
he dont wan me 2 b hurt....
he wanted to be with her again...
but im there blocking their way...
why am i so stupid??

i finally understand the feeling nt being lovE...
i love the wrong person...
why....
why have i choose the wrong person to love??
im really so stupid...
this world is not worth for me to continue live....
because..
i dony know whether i can survive..
without u.....

as in a song...
how do i live without you...
i want to know...
how do i breath without you...
if you ever know...
how do i ever...
ever SURVIVE....
how do i...
how do i...
how do i live.......

Friday, August 22, 2008

hapPY..always...

im haPpy...
yea...im hapPY...
looks like im ok in evrything..
im physical...
mentally....
yea...
re...ally...









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to be honest..
im hurt deEp inside my heart...
so hurt..
bt i cant let ppl c wat i felt...
worry me....
so i have 2 pretend...
pretend that im hapPy....
so that i could look ok n be gud...
not 2 b sad...
nt sad...
happY...
i wish 2 xpress my feelings...
bt i cANT...
i will make ppL felt moRe stress...
more pressure...
so...
i do what i have 2 do...






isnt it guD?
do any ppl support me 2 do this??

Saturday, August 16, 2008

L.O.V.E

L, is for the wAy you lOok at me....

O, is for thE only one I see...

V, is vEry very exTRaordinarY...

E, is even moRe than Anyone that you adore

LOVE..is all that I can tAke to you..

LOve...is moRe than juZ a game for twO...

Two...in loVE can make it

take my HEart bUT pleAse dont breaK it

LOVE...

was meanT for mE and yOOU...

y is this happening?

y is this hapening?
couldnt it be more easy??
y u have 2 treat ppl like that?
ppl are suffering and u didnt even care....

well dont talk about u....
him...

i wan ted 2 gv him some words..
care about him....
talk to him...
but i couldnt..
its hard....
all his head...
all his thoughts now...
is all bout u....
u.......
what will happen if i talk to hIm?
what will he thinks?
i shouldnt be that busy body...

i shouldnt care other peoples things...
but i couldnt watch him like that....
it hurts...
i coulnt express....

i will only watch u by the side...
watch u sad..
watch u.....
y should i sigh....
is it worth?
am i waiting for ur responds?
am i??

......
final exam is coming....
and now i am thinking all of this?
i felt so useless.....
i failed in everything......
everything......
LOVE....
DANCE...
STUDY....
FAMILY...
FRIENDS....


EVERYTHING.......

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

i surrender....

i surrender...
i really dont know what had happen...
is it too fast?
did it really happen too fast??
i cant take it anymore..
i surrender...
i surrender...

i dont want to have anymore problem happen
and effect our friendship...
i wanted the life before...
i want our fiendshiP to be like las time...
i dont want anythings to happen again..
i wanted to be like last timeee.....

oh my dearest god...
is this a test??
is this a test that wanted me to be strong??
if so i really wanted to be stopped..
i want a simple life...
im willing to do anythings else but not this..
im hoping to have a good life in college...
not a complicated life....
not a life that full of pressure...
not because of study...its because of LOVE...

i dont want to be control by others...
i wanted to find my way out of this miserable disaster....

Thursday, August 7, 2008

i loVe my life..

Finally....
i know who i really love...
i feel so hapPy with him....
we are happy...
really happy...
buT.....
somethings stopping us...

have we sin??
for being together??
have we sin?
to love each other?

we dont know what people think...
we dont know what they think of us...
we dont want to spoil our friendshiP...
we've done so many to prevent us from having spoiles relation..
because of LOVE...


FRIENDS...
friendship is forever....
do not let LOVE relation break our friendship...
and do not let others spoiled our friendshiP too...
we need each other too....

LEt us think widely....
LOVE is juz a small things but its powerful too...
although its powerful...
but our friendship is bond toghther...

FrienShip foreVer........

Monday, August 4, 2008

life's really sucKs!

now i know who i really love.....
but there is so many problems...

why are thre such ppl in this worldd??
coul they b any selfish?
dont they think other ppls's feeling??
dont think think wat is good for others??
we have feelings too....
we are nt 'thigs'

soo....
pls do think about wat is happening around u...
DUN B SO SELFISH.....





plzzz do change....

Saturday, July 26, 2008

suffering...

why the ppl i love...
all also didnt have feelings on me...
and the ppl i didnt like...
will have feelings on me??
is it very hard to love someone??
it is very painful to know that he didnt have feelings on me...

should i sit here and cry?
should i continue...?
should i give up..
ppl say that i look confidence...
but actually...
im not....
my heart is weaker than anybody else....
i have a weak heart...
and i dont like to be hurt....
i dont like....
so what should i do?

this is the first time i felt so hurt...
so i will stop loving people and start changing myself...
change myself to a better person...
so that i wont be look down....

mu beloved god...
plzz guide me in everything i do...
to make me a better person....
T.T

Friday, July 25, 2008

ruin..

now only i know that im that bad..
i thought that im the luckiest one...
but im wrong....
im too confident...
i should not me like that...
i should have change my attitude...

im so stupid stupd stupid...
really so stupid....
i really ruin my life...
i dont know that im the one or nt...
why i feel so confident that im the one??

oh..god...plzz...
help me change my attitude..
i wan my attractive side...
like last time...
now i have ruin it....

bt i think its too late...
haiz..
i think i should give up...
give up on that personn...
bt...
can i???

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

dance..

i feel so stress out...
i dont know what to do??
will i ever make it?
will i satisfy them?

argh...dance...

2 me... dance is very unique...
dance is all about creativity..
dance is all about how we espress our feeling...
the way we move...
the way we dance...

dance dance dance.......

back 2 the title..

sport dance....

the exam is coming and i only have 4days to coreograph...
im goin 2 b mad...
all of our member will be mad and also me....
we have 2 learn like hell...
like helllllll!

oh my godd.....
help me.......

Monday, July 21, 2008

??

what have i done?
did i done anything wrong?
y i feel like im such a loser??!
or im nt good enough?
cant i do anything i wan 2 do?
why muz i've been critisice?

i hate being criticize...
i hate i hate i hate...
i know that u all are just joking around..
bt do u know?
im a human...
i DO have limit...
so plzzz...
pls think of others before sayin...

i always ask myself?
do i have freedom?
am i been hated by ppl?
am i too overdoing??

life are really very shocking....
we dunno wat will happen next...

i hope i wil bcome a better person....
i hope they will accept what i am...
and who i am......

Friday, July 18, 2008

college life..





college life...

hmm...

well everybody said it is very fun....

bt omg!

it is so stress...

especially the teacher there always ask us to have exam evryweek!

are we a robot??

we are humans too u know...




maybe its also good or us..

but i will become mad very soon..








well...there are also intersting parts at collge...

yaa...we enjoyed very much...

we do many things there..

and that i have a big crush on this cute guy..

he is very good at dancing...

and he is reallyyy CUTE!.

we do talk sometimes..

bt the problems is..

do he??

haizz...








YIM57...

my class...

its very happy to meet them..

they are so crazy..crazy...and crazyyy!

haha....

well... we are PR students...

thats what we suppose to do...isnt it??




This is our classmate...><






we took picture looking 'strict'..



we have ntg to doo....



too free..too too free...



hahaha...






i enjoyed very much in college...



i really happy to know them...









i hope 2 have a great relationship wit my frenz
this 2 years...
it is really nice 2 meet them.....

oh my gosh...

oh my goshh..
is it me? or he just make me feel like that?
it is me? or he just too attractive?
it is me? or he is too... CUTE??
it is me? or im just fallin in love?

oh my gosh...
my heart is speeding when i saw him..
and even more faster when he looked into my eyes...
and even even more faster when he talked to me..
and my face is turning as red as a strawberry...
im scared to look at him..
even through i wanted to look at him even more...

oh no...
im falling in love..
no im not...
yes i am....
accept the fact that it is real...

but do he have the same feeling as me?
we dont know..
only he knows...
i dont have the courage to think...
i dont have the courage to see..
i dont have the courage to accept,
if he already have another...
i do not have the beauty to attract him..
while other people too has the same feeling as me...

i dont have the chance...
i theink i just sit by the corner..
watch him by far...
watch him hapily..

Love...not necessary have to be together..
we should let our partner find their own happiness..
and let them be free..if they want...
that is called lOve...
love is not meant to be each other...
is to watch other happy...

although i wish that he have the same feeling as me...
but...its impossible...
so...
i hope u will be happy...
happy everyday....
everyday......



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